New Chapter

Today's 1st April 2011. A brand new month, 4 more days to exactly 1 year at X company. Last year this time, I was still a noob.

Today, I'm able to manage trainings, held discussions, meetings with different levels of people, still stuttered at times, nervous, but given the communication skills trainings during my polytechnic years was really a plus. It helps me to build my foundation though with experience to real working world, I'm thankful this comm skills learnt in class helps to pave for my future. :)

I'm thankful to my mentor. big time.

Though not a IT graduate, somehow I got involved in IT-related job. As workload gets heavier, I felt a need to upgrade myself. With my current knowledge in order to continue to compete in future challenges, upgrading is definitely a must. There are times I wanna give up, but somehow a voice in me kept telling I should hang on there, I can do it no matter what. Mocking, look down, sarcasm I have been through, I hope these positive spirit can keep me going.

Next, boyfriend. Yes, I broke up with my boyfriend a year ago. Once in awhile he'll still text me. Showing care & concern how's life for me. Sometimes I felt he should stop texting me. Do you really think we still can be friends? I don't know how you felt, it was you who choose to leave. Maybe you don't want to ruin my future, maybe you foresee that you cannot give me the happiness. Maybe I'm asking too much from you? Maybe I am too cool to be your girl. Maybe I lack those qualities you are looking for in a girl. Maybe we are not compatible in the first place. What is the reason behind our sudden breakup? Boy, if you see this, I hope you can tell me, cos I really don't know how and when things became like plain water. Not to fight, but I need to know the truth. Maybe readers out there will think, oh dear you should have just get over it. Since it's something in the past. Does knowing the truth mends a broken heart? can things return to what it's like in the past? Exactly, I doubt.

I want and I wish to move forward. I believe if we ever got the chance to be together, or if we are fated, we will still have each other back. But for now, I am not reminiscing the good times we have. I want a new life. I knew of this person from my working environment, I hope to get to know him better :) Mr Same-Alphabet-As-My-Name, if you are following my blog, yes, let's be friends. I wish to know you. :)



<3
Steph